I love this photo for many reasons. One is that it is a fun portrait of my husband (who rarely sits still and allows me to photograph him). And two, it captures the dimple on his right cheek. That dimple doesn’t make appearances very often, so I know he’s really tickled when it comes out. I meant to accompany this photo with an interview of Jeremy. If I’m able to question him I’ll post the content later in the day.

Happy birthday to my wonderful husband! You are my balance in this life and I praise God for you. If Livia could blog, I know she’d say thank you for all the tickle-wrestles and soda parties you have together. She loves you this much! (Envision her arms spread out wide.)

I grew up celebrating September 24 with my brother Andrew. So a huge happy birthday goes out to NooNee as well. Happy 27th, big kid! We can’t wait to see you when you come to town soon!

Livia said some things tonight that were hurtful to me as a mother. Frankly, I didn’t think I’d hear things like that until she was 14 or so, but perhaps I should have known better considering her strong will. Whenever I’m thrown into a new situation parenting-wise, it always takes me awhile to figure out an appropriate response. Do I discipline for this? If so, how? Do I simply ignore this behavior? Do I give an explanation and a warning this time around? I was actually taken aback by what Liv said and had to stop to consider how very little she understood the implications of her words. (For those of you who are curious, her comments related to adoption.)

After thinking about our little situation that had potential to brew into something very unlovely, I realized, Hey! I’m the parent here! I’m in charge, not this pint-sized punkin. Livia is a child, she doesn’t know what I know and understand what I understand. It’s my job to act like, speak like, and protect her like an adult.

I felt incredibly God-ordained in my role in that moment. Even more than that, I felt like I understood just the smallest bit of what God feels for us, his children. How many times have I turned away from his love? Over and over and over. How many times have I thought, spoken or acted in ways that were dishonoring to him? How often do I say ridiculous things that distort truth? All. the. time. God stands over me, in his infinite wisdom and love, and is as steady as a rock. He doesn’t change like the shifting shadows (James 1:17). He doesn’t treat me in the way I deserve to be treated when I’m foolish and childish, but extends limitless compassion and grace to me (Psalm 103:8-10). His love is steadfast and never ceases (Lamentations 3:22).

As I was considering all this tonight I was reminded about something great and wonderful today, something I almost forgot about. At lunchtime I needed to take Livia to preschool and run a few other errands. But I’ve been feeling super crappy with a bronchial infection and emotionally I wasn’t doing so well. Once we were loaded in the car I started crying in frustration. After a few minutes, Livia began to pray out loud: “Dear God, please take care of Mommy and heal her cold…” I can’t remember the rest of the prayer. I just know I was impressed by her sensitivity and the fact that she knew she could turn to God in spontaneous prayer, that God would take care of these problems.

Thank you, God, for loving us so incredibly—you have given us blessings we do not deserve. Thank you especially for Jesus, who died on the cross so that we, who are so childish and full of selfishness, can spend eternity with you. Help me to be more like you, to love my child the way you love me.

My parents’ apple tree is in full production mode and its limbs are heavy with fruit. Apparently, the tree needed a sturdy trimming last year in order to be this fruitful. We are glad to be recipients of baskets and bagfuls of these tart green apples—and Livia is thrilled to experience apple farm outings in her own Nana and Papa’s front yard!

I plan to make apple butter in the crockpot soon. I made some applesauce as well which didn’t turn out so great. That’s what I get for “winging it” and forgoing all recipes. Gloppy, sticky applesauce. It smelled great and tasted fine, but I can’t say I want to eat it a week later (texture is key!). I am thoroughly enjoying the new Zion Cookbook however and decided to cook up Karen Hunt’s apple muffins. This is the part where I have to eat my words. I’ve told many friends in the past that I DON’T LIKE muffins. (I think I wrote it on the blog, too.) Well, guess what. I made Karen’s apple muffins and they were delicious. Yum-o. Tasted great. So scratch my old prejudice against muffins. New days of muffin-y goodness awaits the Tredway household.

For the record, the new Zion Cookbook rocks. It has a lot more recipes than the old one and has breathed new life into my kitchen. If you’d like one but don’t attend Zion or Redeemer, you can send me an email (). Cookbooks are $15 and I imagine you’d need to include something extra for shipping and handling. Without further ado, I present the recipe for Apple Muffins.

Muffin

• 2 C flour
• 3 t baking powder
• 1/2 C sugar
• 1/2 t salt
• 3 T shortening
• 1 egg, beaten
• 3/4 C milk
• 1 t vanilla
• 1 C apples, peeled & chopped

Preheat oven to 400. Sift together flour, baking powder, sugar and salt. Cut in shortening; set aside. Combine eggs and milk. Add to flour mixture, mix until flour is just moistened. Fold in apples. Fill greased or paper-lined muffin tins half full.

Crunch topping

• 1/3 C brown sugar
• 1/2 t cinnamon
• 1/3 C nuts (opt)

Combine topping mixture. Sprinkle over muffin batter. Bake for 25 minutes.

(Oh, that title’s a groaner. Sorry, couldn’t help it.)

Someday I will blog again. Someday I’ll write a blog post that’s longer than two sentences. But for now, there are two crazy Tredways awaiting me downstairs and movie night will soon commence. Also, it should be noted that my computer is on the outs again (so moody! or perhaps it has seasonal allergies) and I have little tolerance for the slow pace of our old iMac. But truly, I want to blog more. We’ll see about that.

I just returned from a fabulous weekend at the lake with the Horn Creek girls. Our last morning at the cabin Autumn commented, “Who knew resting could be so tiring?” and I fully agree. Between time with the girls and the great discussions with Joie on our roadtrip to Minneapolis (which, I must note, made Iowa’s landscape zoom by and deepened my relationship with my dear friend), I find myself back at home physically tired but emotionally renewed.

Being away for four days also made my daughter magically grow faster and become more articulate, and magnified my love for my husband. It is so good to be back with my family. And it was so good to be refreshed. More photos coming soon.

If you’re patient and can wade through the following photos, then you’ll be rewarded with my Aunt Ruthie’s chocolate chip cookie recipe. She recorded it for me on an old grocery list and the title read exactly as it’s listed above. I’ve made the cookies so many times in the last few weeks that I could do without them for some time (and that’s saying something because I love me some cookies).

Prior to becoming a mother I romanticized the notion of cooking with my small child. What I didn’t foresee was the reality of kid fingers double-dipping in the dough, a little mouth eating straight from the mixing bowl when Mommy’s back was turned, and copious amounts of flour dusting the kitchen floor. Note to future mothers: cooking with your child also takes a lot more time than cooking by yourself! However, when Liv and I do cook together, I’m always rewarded by two things. One, the chance for a decent photo opp. And two, the opportunity for me to get better, with clear boundaries and more patience, at instructing and oftentimes disciplining my child. Apparently human beings aren’t born with the knowledge that they should never double dip! Imagine that.

After lots of baking with Liv by my side, I learned that she likes flour. Here’s my little helper with her very own pile:

And here’s my little helper patting it into just the right shape for…

licking off the counter.

Now, doesn’t that look yummy? I mean really, who WOULD’NT want to eat straight flour?

Ah, my goofy girl. And just so you know, I’m sparing you the photos with Liv’s tongue stuck out. She’s into that kind of thing these days, the tongue-sticking out thing. Will that phase be ending anytime soon?

You’ve been patient. So without further ado, I give you my Aunt Ruthie’s cookie recipe.

The Best Chocolate Chip Cookies EVER

Ingredients

• 4 eggs
• 2 C brown sugar
• 2 C white sugar
• 1.5 C Crisco
• 1 t baking soda
• 2 t salt
• 3 t baking powder
• 4 t vanilla
• 4 C flour

Steps

1. Preheat oven to 350.
2. Mix ingredients.
3. Stir in 1 package chocolate chips.

Notes

• For the best chocolate chocolate chips, add one large package of instant chocolate pudding mix.
• This recipe makes a lot of dough! You can roll the extra dough into foil and freeze until you need it.
• One more thing. If you’re using large eggs, add another half cup of flour to the dough.
• Want to know how long to bake the cookies? I had to guess on this one. It’s approximately 10 minutes, mas o menos.
• Aunt Ruthie, I hope you don’t mind me sharing your recipe with the world…

Buying groceries.
Watching Bambi.
Creating websites.
Attending preschool.
Feeling nostalgic.
Ignoring dust bunnies.
Preparing community dinner.
Getting hair cut.
Creating church bulletin.
Wanting a nap.
Getting to clean house.
Enjoying cool breezes.
Installing new carseat.
Loving each other.

Death has visited the Prairie Box this week. (Hang in there with me, I’m being dramatic.) First off was a mama squirrel out front. Ew. Boy, am I glad that my husband took care of the carcass–dead critters totally gross me out after one incident with maggots. Ew again [shudder]. Evidently mama squirrel was actively nursing a little one, who I almost stepped on a few days later. Fortunately, baby squirrel is no longer in the yard. I’ll assume Jeremy took care of that one, too.

And then there’s Betta. Rest in peace, dear blue fish. There is a great chance that we caused his death as we weren’t feeding him very often. In my own defense I’ll say that Betta wasn’t eating well so I wasn’t very routine in the feeding of a fish who wouldn’t eat. Then again, all living creatures must die someday, so perhaps Betta died from natural causes… Or perhaps Livia’s little hand in his bowl one too many times caused him to have a heart attack. Alas, at least he didn’t stroke out and live half-heartedly for months on end (like his predecessor, Goldfish, another blue betta). Now we welcome to the family Geoff. Geoff was almost named Greg, as in Greg Wiggle, but then Liv decided to name him after the purple Wiggle instead. I’m rebelling against the whole thing by spelling Jeff with a G. Somehow that makes the name more bearable. Livia is a phenomenal namer; really, she has a gift. But naming the fish after a Wiggle? G. E. O. F. F. Geoff is a fine red betta, fast and animated. I foresee a long, enjoyable future for him, complete with regular feedings.

Finally, the human Tredways cheated death this week. Okay, not so much. (I said I was being dramatic.) But we did have a little adventure after discovering the odor of gas in the house. A stove burner had been left on, no flame to be seen, probably by yours truly. With that common-sense mind of his, Jeremy cleared out the fumes by opening doors and windows and letting the lovely night air in. Add a little sense of panic to common sense and you have me calling the gas company at midnight and then promptly turning the small event into a Big Event. “Do NOT turn on a fan, a light, anything. LEAVE the house immediately. WAIT until the company inspects the leak to re-enter your home.” In a heartbeat I had Liv wrapped in a quilt and out the front door. And so the three human Tredways sat on their front steps in the quiet, dark night, blinded only by headlights periodically coming down the street. Twenty minutes turned into 30, which turned into 40. Finally, a kind and sleepy man from the gas company walked through the Prairie Box and declared everything okay. Livia enjoyed the midnight adventure. Jeremy knew we didn’t really need to call the gas company. And I felt sheepish but slept well knowing we wouldn’t perish in our beds that night.

That’s it, our week in a nutshell. Death, life, and enough drama to keep it real.

Geoff says hello.

While we wait and pray for an addition to our family, Liv takes full advantage of playing big sister to her cousin and baby neighbor. We loved having Madeleine around all last week. It was fun to see the girls play together and encourage one another; they also squabbled like siblings if one accidentally, or purposefully, touched another. Simon, or Bugaboo as Liv calls him, has become a big baby now. His days in the NICU seem almost like a dream that never really occurred.