There exists a continuum that falls between the points “Planner” and “Flies-By-the-Seat-of-His/Her-Pants” and I have realized that I’m quite close to Planner side of it all. Overall, this is an okay thing… I consider it nice to know what I’m doing, when I’m doing it, where I’m doing it and who I’m doing it with. The difficulty comes when a unknown arises, one that I simply have to become comfortable with. I want to KNOW. I NEED to know. And sometimes, darnit, I just DO NOT KNOW. Sitting within the unknown… It can be tough.

Then again, sometimes I embrace the unknown. I’ll readily admit I love a surprise party in my honor; furthermore I was shocked when I found that some (ahem, Jeremy) don’t love such events! I really love the occasional gift of flowers or impromptu dinner with my husband. I enjoy having friends or family drop by the house unannounced and I appreciate the spontaneity and flexibility associated with my job at Zion Church. Little things. Fun things. Happy things. Daily things… for these I can fly by the seat of my pants.

But big, life-altering things? Someone pass me an instructional book, advice from the ages, a map and a compass and I’m ready to go. And if I can’t have such things? Well, that’s when I hunker down and wait, hoping for the unknown to soon become comfortably known.